It’s so typical for us to start the New Year off with a huge list of goals that we want to accomplish. Some attainable, and some absolutely far-fetched (though we’ll never admit to the latter). Resolutions, as we call them. And I too have been one to countdown the seconds until I could eagerly reveal my resolutions to any and everybody who bothered to hear about them. I loved to say, “this is MY year.” As if suddenly all the change I wanted to see in my life would begin to manifest because the date read January 1.
But as I’ve continued along my journey of life, suddenly resolutions aren’t all they’re cracked up to be anymore. They almost seem like excuses for any disappoints from the year prior. Like I could somehow omit any past blunders and suddenly become this new man because of the calendar. But that’s bullshit. (Don’t pardon my language)
I’m the same person today, on January 1, 2018, that I was last year, on December 31, 2017. And instead of running away from any pitfalls or mistakes I made last year and masking them with “resolutions,” it’s time that I embrace my missteps, missed opportunities and disappointments and allow them to mold me into the human being that I am and will become. (we’re always evolving)
I’m coming to the realization that life isn’t about resolutions, it’s about genuine growth. There’s a certain ebb and flow that takes us all through valleys and peaks of emotions filled with happiness, sadness, anger, disappointment and a plethora of other frames of mind that all come and go as we continue on through life.
We have all had our fair share of successes and failures, triumphs and defeats. And all of these aspects of life provide a healthy balance for our human experience. I was once someone who would take failures and defeat really hard. I just took things too personally. And as a result, I’d let emotions like sadness, anger or disappointment fester in my spirit.
My inability to understand that these emotions were okay to experience led me to find solace in smoking weed and drinking alcohol. Not that there’s anything wrong with doing either of those things, but I see now that a big part of why I would do these things was to placate my feelings. To numb my emotions in a sense. And I believe there is truly something wrong with that.
I was selfish for not allowing myself to experience life in its full greatness. That greatness being inclusive of the many ups and downs that we all face. So as I sit here on January 1, 2018, I will not be compiling a list of resolutions, instead I will embrace all that 2017 provided. And in doing so, I look forward to a new year full of more ups and downs, curve balls and everything in between.
There will be times of happiness, moments of sadness, bouts of anger, jubilation filled successes and heart wrenching disappointments. But in allowing all of these emotions to flow through me as opposed to fighting or masking them, I know I have done my part in not cheating myself out of this beautiful journey called life.
I hope everyone has a Happy New Year!
— A Sane Man
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